Words

There are times I wonder how is it that our mind is troubled still when we had already made a choice some time in the past. Are we meant to forever eat our words and grope around for a new way to incorporate the events that plowed right through us? If that is so, then I am at a lost for the moment.

I had tread around and made my choice, and yet, it now feels that I have spoken too soon, made my decision at a time when I am in a state of mind, for now I am face with conflict that I had not foreseen. I do not lead a planned life, however at most circumstances, I am able to be decisive.

But what had changed within me? How come I find myself at a loss to explain this feeling of uncertainty? How is it that I am unable to determine which road to take when it was clear to me awhile back? Was it the situation I find myself in? Was it the war between fear of the unknown and the adventurous desire to seek out new experiences?

I am horribly and dreadfully lost, and I can only hope that I will make the right choice when the time is ripe.